Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in dead_2_religion's LiveJournal:

Friday, May 29th, 2009
3:32 pm	The impossible has become Possible... Day 143...thats all I'm sayin :-D Current Mood: hyper (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 1st, 2009
2:23 pm	"Slippin" Ha ha ha ha ha ha uhh See to live is to suffer but to survive Well that's to find meaning in the suffering. [Chorus] Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I gots to get up Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up! [Repeat] [1] I been through mad different phases like Masons To find my way & now I know that happy days are not far away If I'm strong enough I'll live long enough to see my kids Doing something more constructive with they time Than bids I know because I been there Now I'm in there sit back & look At what it took for me to get there First came the bullshit the drama with my mama She got on the fly shit until i split And said that I'ma be that seed That doesn't need much to succeed Strapped with mad greed and a heart that doesn't bleed I'm ready for the world or at least I thought I was Baggin' niggas when I caught a buzz For thinking about how short I was Going too fast it wouldn't last but yo I couldn't tell Group homes & institutions, prepare my ass for jail They put me in a situation forcin' me to be a man When I was just learnin' to stand without a helpin' hand Damn, was it my fault, somethin' I did To make a father leave his first kid at 7 doin' my first bid? Back on the scene at 14 with a scheme To get more cream than I'd ever seen in a dream And by all means I will be living high off the hog And I never gave a fuck about much but my dog That's my only motherfucka I had offered my last Just another little nigga headed nowhere fast [Chorus] [2] That ain't the half shit get's worse as I get older Actions become bolder heart got colder Chip on my shoulder that I dared a nigga to touch Didn't need a click cause I scared a nigga that much One deep went to for kicks Catchin' vicks throwin' bricks gettin by bein' slick Used to get high just to get by used to have to puff my L In the morning before I get fly I ate something a couple of forties made me hate somethin' I did some coke now I'm ready to take something 3 years later showing signs of stress Didn't keep my hair cut or give a fuck how I dressed I'm possessed by the darker side livin' the cruddy life Shit like this kept a nigga with a bloody knife Wanna make records but I'm fucking it up I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up [Chorus] [3] Wasn't long before I hit rock bottom Niggas talking shit like damn look how that rock got him Open like a window no more Indo look at a video Sayin' to myself that could've been yo on the TV Believe me it could be done somethin's got to give It's got to change cause I've got a son I've got to do the right thing for shorty And that means no more getting high drinking forties So I get back lookin' type slick again Fake niggas jump back on my dick again Nothin' but love for those that know how it feel & much respect to all my niggas that kept it real Kept a nigga strong kept a nigga from doin wrong Niggas know who they is and this is yo fuckin' song And to my boo who stuck with a nigga through All the bullshit you'll get yours because it's due [Chorus] Can't get up...I gots to get up This is from the heart baby, don't get it twisted Ahh X BABY!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 17th, 2009
11:18 am	*sigh* kids say the damndest things...that is all (Comment on this)
Monday, December 15th, 2008
11:16 am	Freer Freer By Declan Bennett I wrote this for us in the hope that these words might say more than has already been said Cos we both live in fear that after a year I’m still stuck in yours and you are still trapped in my head Its been harder than we ever imagined an ending to be and all for the freedom I wanted to see Freedom’s not all its cracked up to be…. CHORUS I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me Because we all move on but we don’t all survive behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive It’s a hard climb and the rocks they are huge why do we opt for the struggle instead? I wonder if I’d known I’d be this messed up I’d have still packed my rucksack and climbed on ahead I just want to tell you a face to a face, I think about you and the life I replaced And all for the freedom I wanted to taste Freedom’s just one fuckin’ big waste of space CHORUS I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me Because we all move on but we don’t all survive behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive I just want to tell you a face to a face that I think about you all the time And it’s the most difficult emotion that I’ve ever dealt with Walking out on love and pretending im fine CHORUS I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins I’d feel Freer if you were handcuffed to me Because we all move on but we don’t all survive behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2008
12:09 am	fuck it why not Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on something, favorite type of underwear, explain an interest, whatever. Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 13th, 2008
10:44 pm	Boooorrreeeed omg Soooo is saturday and everyone is out cept me lol.  Edward and Erica were here earlier drunk as hell off the 3 bottles of wine they got.  Loads of fun lemme tell you....me sitting on the couch with a coke while they are acting a damn fool haaha.  guess it just goes to show what i looked like drunk every night lol.  Sobriety is a wonderous thing.  In all seriousness though its not soo bad.  Nights like tonight i actually wanna throw up at the mention of a beer or something although there are those nights where i would kill for a drink.  Long story short...its going better than i thought it would.  I recently got started on effexor so im kinda wondering if that has anything to do with it.  It could just be a coincidence but who knows.  Its just been a lot easier since i started the meds....im pretty sure its the nausea (sp?) that is keepng me from drinking cuz its WAY too soon to be feeling the effects of the meds in that way.  God im so bored!  Edward went to a party and erica went to god knows where and was suppose to be back in an hour but hasnt come back  yet (4 hrs later)  so naturally im wishing i had gone to Newport news instead.  I just decided to stay home this weekend so Jerica could get some time for her and shit.  I feel like by me being down there every weekend i have been getting in the way of her normal routine? i dunno jus a feelin.  Plus ima be up there next weekend for cat's bday and for the busche gardens thing.  Should be fun. anyhow my bordom seems to be cured by sleepiness so ima try to get some sleep i guess (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 10th, 2008
11:33 pm	SOLD!!! er....i mean....STOLED!! Appearance: - I am 5'4 or shorter. - I think I'm ugly. - I have many scars. - I tan easily. - I wish my hair was a different colour. - I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour. - I have a tattoo. - I am self-conscious about my appearance. - I have/I've had braces. - I wear glasses. - I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free. - I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. - I have had more than 2 piercings. - I have had piercings in places besides my ears. - I have freckles. Family/Home Life: - I've sworn at my parents. - I've run away from home. - I've been kicked out of the house. - My biological parents are together. - I have a sibling less than one year old. - I want to have kids someday. - I have children. - I've lost a child. Embarrassment: - I've slipped out a "LOL" in a spoken conversation. - Disney movies still make me cry. - I've snorted while laughing. - I've laughed so hard I've cried. - I've glued my hand to something. - I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. - I've had my trousers rip in public. Health: - I was born with a disease/impairment. - I've had stitches. - I've broken a bone. - I've had my tonsils removed. - I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend. - I've had my wisdom teeth removed. - I've had serious surgery. - I've had chicken pox. Traveling: - I've driven over 200 miles in one day. - I've been on a plane. - I've been to North America. - I've been to Niagara Falls. - I've been to Japan. - I've been to Europe. - I've been to Africa. Experiences: - I've been lost in my city. - I've seen a shooting star. - I've wished on a shooting star. - I've seen a meteor shower. - I've gone out in public in my pyjamas. - I've pushed all the buttons in a lift. - I've been to a casino. - I've been skydiving. - I've gone skinny dipping. - I've played spin the bottle. - I've crashed a car. - I've been skiing. - I've been in a play. - I've met someone in person from the Internet - I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. - I've seen the Northern Lights. - I've sat on a roof top at night. - I've played chicken. - I've seen the Rocky Horror Show - I've eaten Sushi. - I've been snowboarding Relationships: - I'm single. - I'm in a relationship. - I'm available. - I'm engaged. - I'm married. - I've gone on a blind date. - I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. - I have a fear of abandonment. - I've been divorced. - I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. - I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. - I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. - I've kept something from a past relationship. Sexuality: - I've had a crush on someone of the same gender. - I've kissed a member of the same gender. - I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender. - I've had sex with someone of the same gender. - I've had sex with more than one person at the same time. - I am a cuddler. - I've been kissed in the rain. - I've had sex outdoors. - I've hugged a stranger. - I have kissed a stranger. - I have had sex with a stranger. Honesty/Crime: - I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't. - I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. - I have lied to my parents about where I am. - I am keeping a secret from the world. - I've cheated while playing a game. - I've cheated on a test. - I've driven through a red light. - I've been suspended from school. - I've witnessed a crime. - I've been in a fist fight. - I've been arrested. - I've shoplifted. Drugs/Alcohol: - I've consumed alcohol. - I smoke cigarettes. - I smoke pot. - I regularly drink. *working on that* - I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. - I take cough medication when I'm not sick. - I've done hard drugs. - I've been addicted to an illegal substance. - I can't swallow pills. - I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. Mental health: - I have been diagnosed with depression. - I shut others out when I'm depressed. - I take anti-depressants. - I have an eating disorder. - I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. - I've hurt myself on purpose. - I'm addicted to self harm. - I've woken up crying. Death: - I'm afraid of dying. - I hate funerals. - I've seen someone dying. - I have attempted suicide. - Someone close to me has attempted suicide. - Someone close to me has committed suicide. Random: - I can sing well. - I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. - I open up to others too easily. - I watch the news. - I don't kill bugs. - I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme. - I fucking swear regularly. - I sing in the shower. - I am a morning person. - I paid for my mobile phone ring tone. - I'm a snob about grammar. - I am a sports fanatic. - I play with my hair. - I have/had "x"s in my screen name. - I love being neat. - I love Spam. - I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. - I bake well. - My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. - I don't know how to shoot a gun. - I am in love with love. - I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. - I laugh at my own jokes. - I eat fast food weekly. - I believe in ghosts. - I am online 24/7, even as an away message. - I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. - I am really ticklish. - I love white chocolate. - I bite my nails. - I play video games. - I'm good at remembering faces. - I'm good at remembering names. - I'm good at remembering dates. - I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. - My answers are totally honest (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 10th, 2008
2:39 am	You Know the drill.... Jerica...i did yours now you do mine :-D sounds dirty almost 1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? 2) What was your dream growing up? 3) What talent do you wish you had? 4) If I bought you a drink what would it be? 5) Favorite vegetable? 6) What was the last book you read? 7) What zodiac sign are you? 8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. 9) Worst Habit? 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 11) What is your favorite sport? 12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. 16) Do you have any pets? 17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!) 19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 22) What color eyes do you have? 23) Ever been arrested? 24) Bottle or can soda? 26) Do you vote on Election days? 25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? 27) What's your favorite place to hang at? 28) Do you believe in ghosts? 29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 30) Do you swear a lot? 31) Biggest pet peeve? 32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? 33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? 34) If you could live anywhere in the world where would you chose? 35) Do you believe in God? 36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 1st, 2008
4:15 am	Is this the beginning or beginning of the end... If you wanna fly...come and take a ride take a space ride with a cowboy baby...wy yi yi yippie yi yay yippie yi yo yippie yi yay that is all....lol im such a dork...and if you recognized what the fuck i just said you are too :-P (Comment on this)